“Let Go and Let God….”

Five little words that have been slapping me upside the head these past couple of weeks. When life throws us a major curve ball, and things feel out of our control, why do we tend to revert to  worry and trying to push through, hoping we can get the outcome we desire? 

On this blog and in the Bible studies and devotionals I’ve written,  I’ve talked so many times about God’s timing. About how it is perfect and since He is all-knowing, we can trust it. But I’m here to tell you, when we are in the dumps and our own lives feel a bit out of control, it can be extremely difficult to put these five words into action.

I started writing this post a few weeks ago and I’m here to tell you that when I wrote the first two paragraphs, I was in the middle of a personal pity party that was so big and so pathetic, that I couldn’t even finish this post. I was so far from letting go. I closed my laptop and just knew that I wasn’t ready to talk about letting go when I was clinging so tightly to the control and chaos that was running rampant in my world.

But that’s when it really happened. 

I got to a point where I was pondering this topic and I knew without a doubt that if I wrote this to you, I was nothing more than a hypocrite! So I began asking God how I could let go. And how I could let Him be who He is in my life and Lord of my circumstances.

And here is one thing that I know. Letting go isn’t easy, and it isn’t something that any of us can do in our own strength. As I’m writing this today, I wanted to share with you the powerful comfort I’ve found in letting go. But letting go isn’t a physical or even mental action, it’s a supernatural God action, 100%!

And I’m going to need to be very transparent for a minute, so hang on…..

I’ve been absent from this blog for a few weeks, and I’m back here to share what God has been doing with my heart. In the past month I’ve found myself in a place where I almost felt like I was treading water in my life. It literally felt like I was drifting deeper and the more I fought it, the more tired I got. I was emotionally and physically exhausted. I found myself in a place where I really didn’t even know how to stop fighting against circumstances that really didn’t even need fighting in the first place. I was jumping to conclusions, angry for no reason and felt like I had no control of any of my close relationships. I was trying so hard to fix everyone and everything around me that I didn’t even realize that I was hurting myself in the process.

And one day a couple of weeks ago, I was asked by a person who cared very much about what they were seeing in me. 

They asked me “Do you want to fight? Or are you ready to let go?” 

In that moment my response was that I didn’t want to fight, but I also wasn’t able to let go. 

But this is where it gets fun, friend!

If this were a dramatic TV show, I would have walked out of that place in tears praising God for a breakthrough. But my breakthrough didn’t come until I wasn’t expecting it. 

When I left the place where I had that conversation, I talked to God in the car. I told Him that I’m angry, I’m hurt, haunted by things that the enemy has taunted me with for decades. I was tired and jaded. And a few hours later, God broke my heart in a way that only He can. And when I say broke, I mean He broke it open in a way that allowed me to finally feel something other than anger. He in a very supernatural way changed my feelings and softened my emotional rough edges. 

He opened my heart so that I could rest in a way that I myself wasn’t capable of doing. He rescued me from my own thoughts and emotions!

Since that day, my circumstances haven’t really changed all that much, but everything looks so much different. It’s as if a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders! I feel like I can take a deep breath. 

Philippians 4:7 (NIV) says:
 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I say all of this today to encourage you to stop trying to fix your heart yourself. You don’t have to fight this battle alone, you have the God of Eternity, Creator of the Universe, Savior of the World on your side! 

Ask Him for the supernatural peace that you need to be able to let go of the emotions that are controlling you. Talk to Him often. And when life is hard, be encouraged by the promises in His Word. But most of all, don’t lose focus on the fact that He created you for a purpose. And while things may be difficult in this moment, that does not mean that He is finished with you! The best chapters of a life lived for Christ are often the ones that come AFTER the brokenness ♥️ 

At the bottom of this post, I’ve listed some Bible verses for you to read and study this week, as well as a prayer that I encourage you to write out and pray often when you need to “let go and let God.” I really hope this time in God’s Word is an encouragement for you this week! If you need any prayers, please message me here. I’m happy to pray for you!