I’m starting this week in the middle of a season of many changes. Some good, some scary. I’ve been in the middle of some decisions that will affect generations of people, as well as some small decisions that only affect me and my family. Whether big or little, these decisions lately have really bogged down my heart. 

I’ve been tired, restless, anxious. You name an emotion, I’ve likely felt it in the past month! The difficult thing with decisions is knowing whether or not you are making the right one. It’s so hard!! 

I’ve been praying more than usual through this, some days just begging God to give me direction. I straight out asked Him to tell me what to do. And what did He say?

Nothing.

I asked, and asked, and festered. I talked to everyone around me, asking for help. I wore myself out pondering different scenrios. I’d take a break, breathe and once again ask God for guidance, for peace in my soul. Again…nothing. I asked Him to open doors. 

Nothing. 

I asked Him to close doors.

Nothing. 

I got so frustrated that I decided the only logical thing to do was to take matters into my own hands and just make the darn decision.

And that’s when it happened…

When I wasn’t looking, when I had given up, a door SLAMMED SHUT. Like almost literally!!

You’d think that this would give me peace, knowing it is what I prayed for, but my stubborn human nature took over and asked God right away why He made the wrong decision! It had to be some mistake! So I festered and mulled, talked to my friends just feeding my soul nothing but restlessness, anger and discontentment. 

Then I saw this: 

Then almost like a movie playing in my mind, I remembered praying for direction, asking God to open doors, begging Him to help me find peace. It was when I gave up and took my eyes off of Him when I got my answer, but out of stubborn fear I completely missed the rest in my soul that I could have had if I recognized God’s hand at work! He was showing me the path, but I had already chosen the one I thought was better…shame on me!

How often do you do that?  Do you ever think that your way is better than Gods way? And then wonder why you feel so unsettled? Do you ever ask for answers but then get mad when God doesn’t answer the way you want Him to?

Like it says in todays verse, we need to ask God where the good way is, and then walk in it. Does the good way always look like our way? Sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn’t. But if we follow the path set before us by God, we will find that rest that our souls crave. He promises us that!